Thursday, July 23, 2009

ordinary isn't simple...

title might be somewhat related to this post...
it's been raining the past 3 days during the midnight...
and 3 nights has been a diff mood for me
neutral, happy , in the middle of no where

nice guys....am i really a nice guy?...
im not sure either....but i really do wanna get this shirt printed asap!!...it shoo nice~
been coped up pack like sardins lately..
just finished my group presentation...it was a pretty shaky one but the video really helped =)...
thanks jeremy...
now i have to stop procrastinating and move on to further group assignments...
plus now with more club activities i remember when i used to be very active in highschool...
so to be crazy enuff i registered for 5 clubs in total...
Cf, DJclub , Tourism Club , FPS (photography) , Archery
out of those 5 my highest commitment i would have is definetly towards CF...
next would come DJ Club.. im finally a DJ now~ wohoo.. hope to see when im gonna go on air for the first time... my dj name? ... DJ Phant...
not sure bout FPS but would really like to help out more... mayb in members bonding?...
sometimes i wonder why i bother to cling on to certain stuff..
where it's swinging my mood up and down...
i'll say life is ordinary..but it isnt simple at all ><...
they say life is a game....
i'd say life is a game where you should take seriously...
time for fun and seriousness...
i always wondered why im not the first...
why must i always be the next person...
sometimes in life u gotta know that whatever u do ...
it affects not onli one person but other people too..it's like a chain reaction i tell you
true story..
then just so crazy we'll just do things we look back at and wonder...
"WHAT THE HELL WAS I THINKING?!"
thinking that we could achieve something higher...
meeting new people could just make u... feel better ...
if u can click well laa that is.....
these 3 nights i've spent eating honeystars and soyabean...my ultimate fav snack-alicious
been quite awhile since i hanged out in malls i pondered..
then suddenly i thought to my self...
why does something always build up i barely even think about it...then it will just eventually fall apart when i care about it?
somehow the light just gets dimmer and dimmer...
when the cycle keeps repeating it self...
just living in both seperate worlds is hard enuff...
sooner or later i fear the light will just go *poof!!!*...
and noting is solved..
hmm should i go for a jog?...
go work out..?
hmmm....*ponders*
sometimes just a remedy is to simply sing meaningless songs with a guitar..
in this process i found meaningful lines..
this uncertainty is slowly devouring me into it's madness...
before it consumes me...
just need a hand to reach out to sometimes..
always wondered...
how would my life be if 6 years ago i said yes...
if 4 years ago i said no
if 3 years ago i didnt slack and play afool...
but the wonder is..
i am here and i am who i am now =)
care to have a drink and talk about things?
mayb let's have meaningless chatters yet share a meaningful relationship..
sounds good?
no?
what! mayb again!! .. ><
i hate uncertainty

2 comments:

reenz said...

eh my gambar! eh my rambut panjang!

eh victor!!

Victor Kee said...

waaaaaaattttt.....