ordinary isn't simple...

title might be somewhat related to this post...

it's been raining the past 3 days during the midnight...

and 3 nights has been a diff mood for me

neutral, happy , in the middle of no where

nice guys....am i really a nice guy?...

im not sure either....but i really do wanna get this shirt printed asap!!...it shoo nice~

been coped up pack like sardins lately..

just finished my group presentation...it was a pretty shaky one but the video really helped =)...

thanks jeremy...

now i have to stop procrastinating and move on to further group assignments...

plus now with more club activities i remember when i used to be very active in highschool...

so to be crazy enuff i registered for 5 clubs in total...

Cf, DJclub , Tourism Club , FPS (photography) , Archery

out of those 5 my highest commitment i would have is definetly towards CF...

next would come DJ Club.. im finally a DJ now~ wohoo.. hope to see when im gonna go on air for the first time... my dj name? ... DJ Phant...

not sure bout FPS but would really like to help out more... mayb in members bonding?...

sometimes i wonder why i bother to cling on to certain stuff..

where it's swinging my mood up and down...

i'll say life is ordinary..but it isnt simple at all ><...

they say life is a game....

i'd say life is a game where you should take seriously...

time for fun and seriousness...

i always wondered why im not the first...

why must i always be the next person...

sometimes in life u gotta know that whatever u do ...

it affects not onli one person but other people too..it's like a chain reaction i tell you

true story..

then just so crazy we'll just do things we look back at and wonder...

"WHAT THE HELL WAS I THINKING?!"

thinking that we could achieve something higher...

meeting new people could just make u... feel better ...

if u can click well laa that is.....
these 3 nights i've spent eating honeystars and soyabean...my ultimate fav snack-alicious

been quite awhile since i hanged out in malls i pondered..

then suddenly i thought to my self...

why does something always build up i barely even think about it...then it will just eventually fall apart when i care about it?
somehow the light just gets dimmer and dimmer...

when the cycle keeps repeating it self...

just living in both seperate worlds is hard enuff...

sooner or later i fear the light will just go *poof!!!*...

and noting is solved..

hmm should i go for a jog?...

go work out..?

hmmm....*ponders*
sometimes just a remedy is to simply sing meaningless songs with a guitar..

in this process i found meaningful lines..

this uncertainty is slowly devouring me into it's madness...

before it consumes me...

just need a hand to reach out to sometimes..

always wondered...

how would my life be if 6 years ago i said yes...

if 4 years ago i said no

if 3 years ago i didnt slack and play afool...

but the wonder is..

i am here and i am who i am now =)

care to have a drink and talk about things?

mayb let's have meaningless chatters yet share a meaningful relationship..

sounds good?

no?

what! mayb again!! .. ><

i hate uncertainty

Se Voui?

I do admit the past few months hasnt been the best times of my life...

unrest?...

life was more like

upside down.....

a mess...

took awhile...

some too-much-thinking process

and a walk to realise...

time to reconcile....

i sucked up all my ego....

n my machoness....

i did it...

and i said bye to the yesterday =)...

cause if that didnt happen....

i would be where i am right now....

be who i am right now...

i woke up this morning....afternoon 

everything seemed the same

yet so different =)... 

in a good way....different in a good way...

p/s: wasted RM35 ......T_T....idiot notes...

procrastinating again...

shit....

So I Thought

A Song By FlyLeaf...

great testimony of the individuals of the band of Flyleaf

All your twisted thoughts free flow
To everlasting memories
Show soul
Kiss the stars with me
And dread the wait for
Stupid calls returning us to life
We say to those who are in love
It can't be true 'cause we're too young
I know that's true because
so long I was
So in love with you
So I thought

A year goes by
And I can't talk about it

On my knees
Dim lighted room
Thoughts free flow try to consume
Myself in this
I'm not faithless
Just paranoid of getting lost or that I might lose
Ignorance is bliss cherish it
Pretty neighborhoods
You learn too much to hold
Believe it not
And fight the tears
With pretty smiles and lies
About the times

A year goes by
And I can't talk about it

The times weren't right
And I couldn't talk about it

Choris Romance says goodnight
Close your eyes and I'll close mine
Remember you, remember me
Hurt the first, the last, between
Choris Romance says goodnight
Close your eyes and I'll close mine
Remember you, remember me
Hurt the first, the last, between

And I'm praying that we will see
Something there in between
Then and there that exceeds all we can dream
So we can talk about it

[guitar solo]

Choris Romance says goodnight
Close your eyes and I'll close mine
Remember you, remember me
Hurt the first, the last, between
Choris Romance says goodnight
Close your eyes and I'll close mine
Remember you, remember me
Hurt the first, the last, between

And I'm praying that we will see
Something there in between
Then and there that exceeds all we can dream

And all these twisted thoughts I see
Jesus there in between
And all these twisted thoughts I see
Jesus there in between

The Past Present Future Tense

i used to think that the past was pretty bad...

but after looking at all these old photos...the past wasnt that bad..

knowing that things change as u grow older really makes me sad..



the present isn't that great...
u know u can't go back is like when a bald man know his hair will never grow back again...
personally i nvr liked changes in my life...
i feel i always leave something behind...
the day i transfered my school....
the day i left for studies in Melaka...
the day i left Melaka...
i meant i really do feel the emptyness inside eating up day by day...
as i ponder wat would my life be like on the other road?
happier?
deep inside all we want in life is just happiness...i just can't seem to find that joy anymore...
who knows sooner or later something happens and best decide i have to leave this place too...

as i was reflecting back sorry ..to all whom i've offended in the past...
i mite have made some pretty bad judgements and mistakes...
sometimes i wonder this never ending drought and despair..
is my punishment...


well back to online notes
*watches Hardgay instead*

Please Understand...

The Stop and Stare Moment..

Due to some personal reasons..
i'm afraid to say im not in the right mind to blog right now..
well at at least for now...
there's some personal issues and distractions where i have to tackle right now..


sometimes..i guess these things and stupid mistakes i made are so personal...
that this is the only place where i can let it out...
or mayb...
nvm...
but i wish u guys all the best in Finals for MMU students...
and to all the rest of u who are reading...

since im away... here u go....




and also



i'll be back soon enuff.. ;)..

Regrets...

First and Foremost Happy Mother's Day to all Mum's...and especially to u mum....and mum nancy...i got mum kinda worried..when i was unable to sleep just now...some say mayb i was too happy cause Man Utd Retained the premier League title?...nope i dun think it's that... but honestly..nowadays..i just can't sleep peacefully i guess..ever since 2 days ago...

I guess everyone have made mistakes in their life and regret it....
Well i generally move on and try my best to u know correct some of the mistakes i eventually made...
i guess there were two things on My mind that has been bothering me...
2 regrets
2 mistakes....
1 one of them...watever i do...i guess can never make up for it ...it's something i have to live with...
well the next one was problably..i think the cause of all these sleepless nights...it was a mistake made way loooong time ago even before i've gained..."bigger"...i guess..problably..i just want to make this right..but...i am still trying my best...

*Note: to whoever bothered to read until here...this post is more of me talking to my self than me talking to you...it's just a reflection i really need to do cause im goin alittle koo koo now...thank you for noticing.. ;) appreciate it*

anyways... in other news...finals are coming...i can't go for Hillsongs Concert...and i will say this honestly im utterly dissapointed...but well...duty calls... =/ ...it's just a concert..that's what i've been trying to tell myself everyday *note to friends...pls dun ever mention about the hillsongs concert to me...result = i will...and i meant I WILL...sit on u...*

finals and the end of a whole academic year has come....wow...that's fast..it felt like not too long ago i was HERE

ever since appointed as A CG leader in the CF...one thing has been going on thru my mind non stop..." Where shall we go makan?" :D...heheh...well i'll bet it'll be an experience i wont forget..but we'll see...

i think there's the updates for u sorry no photo's in this one will post some when i get back to Cyber....

LOVE IN ACTION PROMO

PROMOOOOOOO!

MMU CYBERJAYA......Presents...

Organizing Clubs: Care Club & CFmmu

Theme: Love in Action

Definition:Love express a strong positive emotion of regard and affection. Love can express to all ages, religion and races. Spreading the joy of love in our community, would indeed benefit us and instill the values of kindness, humbleness, generosity, respect and understanding in our community.

Objectives:
~To enhance social integration among students of different race, religion and background.
~To create an awareness of community work among students of MMU towards building a caring and selfless society.
~To expose students to more leadership and organizing skills.
~To promote unity among students

CARE FAIR 2008 itself..of course!!

Yup..It's back..
It's bigger..
and It's better!!

Food+Drinks+Games+People= LOADS OF FUN!!!

So Come Along...and Join The Fun!!!

Care Fair 2008
Date: 10th to 13th of March 2008 (Monday to Thursday)
Venues:
Misri Plaza
FIT Glass Room
Chiller Plant...

You wouldn't wanna miss out on this...woohoo!
*Those who want open Stall Contact me....*


There will be ..
Performances by our lovely beneficiaries..
Awesome music performed by live bands..
A seriously cool mime performance...

and last but not least...

An interesting short skit entitled

"What Men Live By?"
click here if you're asking "what is this?"


Sound exciting enough??

Care Night
Date: 10th March 2008 (Monday)
Time: 7.30pm
Venue: Multipurpose Hall


You wouldn't want to miss out on this...seriously...


ok back to my post...




Current Mood

Happiness

Happiness....
moody lately...

Life 2

As Promised ;)..thanks for all the feedbacks on the last "LIFE" post...hope u all will enjoy this one even more =D

sometimes making decisions in life is like taking a penalty

it could end up pretty bad if u miss out on something

and u'll just need bandages to cover up ur Scars..*and alittle bit of jingles too* ;)

oh well thats Life 101 for ya~

u can get pretty fustrated and hurt the people around you

especially when the food is gone

so when ur all alone feeling all left out...

and wishing to be that lucky guy...

turn to someone and...

share ur feelings...

when all is well...let's Start a party

i miss christmas dinners and parties like it used to be..

when ur down ur friends will comfort ya'll

and u cant help it just to give them a great big hug~ *see i told ya u need alittle jingles*

u dun nid explanations for that...

cause it's just one of God's wonders in this world

never pout/emo alone..

Point out whoever is bullying u...

the Bro.s will be there in no time to pick u up

cause that's just brotherhood~

then they'll just end up veeting the fella

and u just need to capture some of this moments...

u dun have to be a hero....

just sing a few songs to the moon...

then someone will be at ur doorstep waiting for ya~

so after all that u can walk tall and move on...

at times we fall down hard..and yet we find it hard to pick ourselves up..life is full of problems coming towards u and when u are about to rise up again u would just stumble.."but The Greatest Glory is not in never Falling...but in Rising Up everytime when we fall"
the last sentence was quoted by some dude during the world war 2....

Life 1

Times we get veet-ed

A Bloop that i've met

A bimbo wanna be

and always Fighting under shades as Spartans...

Times we dressed well...for those who wear those high heels

and Even we pretended to be fantastic four

Mountless times of beeing pattrick

and Trying 3 way relationships...

i will always see the face of DOOM..

Beeing Happy...

Acting Cute

Celebrating Birthdays

and Winning something together...

Some have left.....Some still remain...some i said my Goodbye's...and yet i still say Hi

We just Love Killing some of 'em...=D

But Some Just Love Being Bald and spinning Books

and these were one of those who remains...

and these were those who left....

and now trying to remember these Good Old Days

I remembered the most blurr and lukuness one of all...

Some Love Pillars

some trying to pick up beats

but we still Love the Good Ol' Christmas Tree..

Family sticks close...

Just like the Drumset....

Some have changed...

yeah changed.....

definetly change....

super changed

some brightens up ur day...

Some Provides u Food...

Even though i've packed my bags and left

still remain as Good Ol' Friends


Even though life is like a scenario where u are carrying a heavy boulder on top of a broken bridge and arrows are flying towards you...these are the people that carried that boulder with me...

To Be Continued......